The truth is that nothing can separate you from God’s love.
Yes, your addiction is not only self destructive but has led you to do things that make you feel wretched and ashamed. But that doesn’t mean that God no longer loves you. He loves you just as much as he’s always done.
The first step to your healing is recognising the fact that God loves you wholly and unconditionally – no matter what you’ve done or where you’re coming from.